Heyyy ! I’m in study right now. It’s like 12:25. I talked to TJ this morning in history and he said tomorrow he wants to hang out with shelby, me, and joey. but it’s joey’s dad’s weekend so i dont know what’s gonna happen. hopefully something good for me. if he likes me, i hope he does something soon because im not gonna wait around forever. me and shelby decided two weeks would be a reasonable amount to wait. I was on the phone with Shelby last night and I told her she should call TJ, so she did, on three way but he didn’t know i was there. And Shelby was like, “Okay, does joey like jenn ?” and he was like ” well she kinda annoys him because whenever she wants to hang out with him Mike Marinucci calls and like, demands that they hang out and he just gets mad.” So I’m definitely going to try to be less annoying, for my sake. I think that we’re watching some movies tomorrow at Tj’s house downstairs. They have a huuge tv so yeahh. i have Spanish in two periods ! Thank godd. I haven’t talked to “boy” all day long. Yesterday;s spanish class was pretty good btw. We talked a lot, and for some odd reason I forget what most of it was about. But I remember that near the end of class Erin was like “omg jenn, that’s so weird.” and i was like “…what’s weird?” and she goes, “you and joey like, match.” and he was like “heh heh heh” and i put my arm next to his, and i was like “no..haha” and he was like “haha yeah not really.” so that was pretty good. hopefully we have more interaction today Ewww. I have physics next and I don’t think I dod my hw. But i’ll rip something out and pretend it was the hw maybe. I also have to write my ballad tonight for english. I pretened I did it and passed something in today. It was the real lyrics to ‘Everytime I Look For You’ by Blink-182. It would be so weird if some stupid pre-teens made a band/group called Blink 183. My foot’s asleep and it hurts really bad. I have double study on Monday ! I think that’s really good. I still have about 25 minutes left in this one though, so that makes me pretty happy . ugh ! all i can think about is how i want to hang out with joey tomorrow and how much i like him ! hahah, me and bridget skipped lunch and went to the indoor track above the gym and we were standing there looking at joey for a good 5 minutes then J.Grant yelled, “Where are you girls supposed to be ?!” And we were like, “lunch !” and she was like “then go back to lunch !” and she started screaming other things at us to, but neither of us were listening. And then bridget was like, “hahah, gym nazi” and we laughed for a good two minutes. So I’m sure joey heard all of that. I wonder what he was thinking when he saw me ?! Hopefully good thoughts I stayed home two days ago and I was looking at the L.A.M.B. clothing line by Gwen Stefani and I really want a pair of her sneakers. they are sooo cute. I have to pairs that I want, I’ll put up pictures later, when I’m at home. I might stay after today for my Beltran detention ?? If someone awesome goes, that is. Taylor and Maddie just were in the library. I love Tay. Anyways, all I can freakin’ think about is tomorrow night ! tj said joey got some new movies so we might watch them. however, it’s his dad’s weekend so he better be able to come ! me and shelby decided that if joey doesnt come tomorrow, we’ll hang out with tj for 30-60 minutes then be like, “oh, sorry, i gg.” haha, then we’d go to starbucks or something awesome like that. I wish my hair was darker. There’s a girl sitting a row away from me and I really like her hair ans her sweater. I don;t know why but I’m in a really good mood right now. 15 minutes left ! yayyy. i’m really excited for this weekend. I am not going to waste my life away hanging around waiting for people. I do make the best of every situation I put myself in though. Like just last week, me and shelby had big plans and justine ruined them, so we decided not to mope around. we went to the old middle school and it was awesome because it literally smelled the same. it had that musty old school smell. I dont like the smell of the highschool, it’s just plain. Even though i have a lot more freedom in mhs, it’s not the same. I miss the teachers too. Haha, and then after like 45 minutes walking around inside, shelby was like “lets go to the track.” so we went outside and we sat on a picnic table, and shelby was like, “hey there’s my name !” and we got really excited/happy/in good modds because the last time we were there it was summer and we were with Geneva, and Tiff Heffron, and we all carved our names into the table. And they were still there. So it was pretty cool. Tomorrow maybe we’ll do the same thing. It’d be really fun. Iwthout tj of course. I think he means well and everything, but he is really annoying. so is mike marinucci. but whatever, I really can’t control that. Tonight bridget and I are setting our alarm clocks to 3:00 am. and im gonna call her cell and we’re going to talk on the phone for like 3 hours and be mad cool. I’m exciiited ! We were supposed to do that another time, but my alarm rang and I was like “Ah, hell nooo.” and then I went back to sleep. I really hope this whole page posts. Sometimes it doesn’t and that if it doesnt this time that will have meant that I spent a whole 45 minutes writing this for nothing. I hope that does not happen. Well, the bell’s gonna ring soon. Wish me luck with hanging out with Joey if you are reading this ! If I do, I will be so excited and happy x10 !!

heeeey

today is tuesday, january 16th, 2007. and im staying home from school today. we just had a long weekend. we had a half day on friday. I WAS SUPPOSED TO HANG OUT WITH JOEY

yayayayya

i’m hanging out with joey this weekend ! i’ll write more about it later

Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the
fear is just of making a decision, because what
if you’re wrong? What if you’re making a mistake
you can’t undo? The early bird catches the worm.
A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is
lost. We can’t pretend we hadn’t been told. We’ve
all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers,
heard our grandparents warning us about
wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to
seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for
ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes.
We have to learn our own lessons. We have to
sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug
until we can’t anymore. That knowing is better than
wondering, that waking is better than sleeping
and even the biggest failure, even the worst,
beat the hell out of never trying.
-Greys.

i love this qoute.

Crash Into Me ♥

You’ve got your ball
You’ve got your chain
tied to me tight tie me up again
who’s got their claws
in you my friend
Into your heart I’ll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
and sweet you roll
Lost for you I’m so lost for you

You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I’m bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

If I’ve gone overboard
Then I’m begging you
to forgive me
in my haste
When I’m holding you so girl
close to me

Oh and you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show your world to me
In a boys dream.. In a boys dream

Oh I watch you there
through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you
wear it so well
tied up and twisted
the way I’d like to be
For you, for me, come crash
into me

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this week’s been really good on friday, january 5th was really good !! haha, i was in beltan’s spanish class with joey and we were talking about we got really close. like literally we were 1 inch away from eachother’s face. haha, and beltran walked over and was like “you guys are to close. you can be as close as you want in ze hallways of outside of school, but not in my room.” hahah, and then she was like “joey turn around” and he was like “fine, i’ll turn around and talk to jenn” and he turned around and did the one second motion. eeeh ! he’s so cute and i like him so much. i just hate weekends cause i never see him i wonder if he misses me too. that’d be really cute and awesome and my heart always beats really fast when i think about him. im gonna gooo. i’ll write later on !

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i hung out with joey on tuesday, the 26th and it was amazing, and i havent seen him since
it makes me really sad. i dont think he likes me anymore. im realllly trying to not be annoying. and im going to starbucks with justine and mike marinucci wanted to come and we told him he could and he called joey and tj to see if they wanted to join and they dont feel like it. ( i get to see joey tomorrow but it’s probably going to be reallly awkward. pleaseee lord have him still like me as a crush. i like him so much. i think i even like him more than i liked dave. and that is a lotttt. ugh. bring me some good luck ?!